Controlling the Demon

This is an anonymous post written by a Lane 9 Project contributor. Names have been changed to respect the privacy of family members. “I’m not Emily! I’m not Emily!” Brett screamed hysterically over and over again until I moved my backpack, my books, and physically removed myself from the room. Suddenly...everything had changed. Brett needed … Continue reading Controlling the Demon

How long distance running and becoming a mother ended my disordered eating

L9P Community Member Post: Katie Mulcahy “She gonna be a fat chick, she keep eating all those peanut butter cups.” Spoken by my 15-year-old brother’s friend. I was 7. Peanut butter cups were my favorite. Growing up I was aware of weight, aware that being a “fat chick” was a bad thing. My mom and … Continue reading How long distance running and becoming a mother ended my disordered eating

I’m glad I know my “baby weight”

I stepped on the scale and, on impulse, looked down to see the number. I was in for an early pregnancy test, and curious about my baseline. Where were we starting? What did I weigh? I wouldn’t have known otherwise, because I threw the scale away almost a decade ago. Ten years ago, I stepped … Continue reading I’m glad I know my “baby weight”

What a dog can teach us about self-love and recovery

L9P Community Post: Jacqueline Ballou Erdos Afew months before I was diagnosed with hypothalamic amenorrhea, my husband and I brought home a rescue pup from an adoption event in New York City. We named our then 1-½ -year old Petit Basset Griffon Vendeen mix, Maizie. We didn’t know much about Maizie’s history, but did know … Continue reading What a dog can teach us about self-love and recovery

When you listen to your body

L9P Community and Ambassador Post: Sara Scinto I had just passed the 20 mile mark of my first marathon, the longest I had ever run; I was suddenly overcome with emotion as I realized I had not one hint of bone pain. I didn’t even wear shin sleeves for the race, which had become a … Continue reading When you listen to your body